Dear Aki,

At the end of the day
Sitting under a starry sky
Staring at the moon
That full moon I was fond of
The time I was leading a carefree life
I ask my inner self
Were you worth it?

Texting all the day
Chatting till the middle of the night
Sharing tons of laughs
Sharing our darkest hours
I thought I knew you only too well
But now I can’t stop
Asking my inner self
Were you worth it?

Going through happiness
Making our way through pain and sorrow
For a long time I believed
We were stuck with each other
For life
But now I can’t stop
Asking my inner self
Were you worth it?

The miles that prevented us
From seeing each other
As often as we wanted
Were nothing compared
To the passionate love we lived
But now I can’t stop
Asking my inner self
Were you worth it?

Your lies discovered
Your brunette showed
Your double life revealed
I thought I was dying
Of a broken heart
And now I can’t stop
Asking my inner self
Were you worth it?

Were you worth
My time
The eight years of my little life

My love
That feeling I was only living for

My pain
Those sleepless nights
And those unstoppable tears

My body
That one I only reserved for you

Were you really worth it?

I never knew I could hurt like this
And as weird as it may seem
I still wake up in the morning
Hoping to find some repentance message from you
I still go to sleep the night
Having you in my mind
But are you worth it?

As the winter is in the corner
As I see forward a snow-covered landscape
As I know what the cold does to your not-so-strong body
I wish I were there
To make sure
You cover your throat well
Before going out
Yeah, I still love you
That same way I used to
But are you worth it?

I wonder and wonder
But still I can’t find the answer.
Hoping this finds you well
As you are walking your way
To fulfill your dreams
By becoming that surgeon cardiologist
I only wish you learn to also repair
This heart you didn’t mind breaking.